Years ago I was what is considered clinically depressed…. I had a peak experience which was to undo this. I was reading the Eagle’s Gift at the time; living in a two room apartment in the city where i was. I had been out and about wondering the parks and street… i often did! I […]
Read More Not dwelling on it…The greatest get out clause in the game; “I never asked to be born”.“I never asked for any of this”. But, in shamanic terms the understanding is precisely that; you agreed to enter the world. The suffering you experience now is the price you pay for being born. That’s exactly the deal! That’s Karma….. Would […]
Read More The Soul’s PurposeA promo album was released by Geffen called The Power of Silence in 1992. A full release never appeared, but Toltec is essentially the same music, with added narration. The 1996 Toltec release is made up of 13 cuts divided into three parts. It tells the tale of the Toltec, a Native American concept of […]
Read More ToltecDancing in the waves……..The Shaman says; man is the dream of the Dolphin…… “Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity […]
Read More Man is the dream of the dolphinI have realised after many years of following the Toltec way to knowledge, that the path with heart as Don Juan described must be different for every person. Yet, Don Juan says there are an infinite number of wrong paths, and only one true path that leads you anywhere What the heart desires in each […]
Read More The Path with heart (choose life)I’ll tell you what is wrong with the world! It’s religion fundamentally that has gone astray; you can put the world’s catastrophe down to many things, but in the final analysis, the fault lies with religion, not politics or any other organisational structure. The reason I say this is because I have ‘seen’, and seeing […]
Read More I’ll tell you what is wrong with the world!The mask is a vital aspect of Toltec mythos; it is also an integral part of shamanism, as a whole. Don Juan said a warrior can wear any mask they like, however, there comes a time when the mask, must be removed. This is because of the need to be authentic, which is the quest […]
Read More The Warrior’s maskOnce there was a uniting global system of unity, I am sure. Before a great cataclysmic event that put an end to peace and stability on this planet and plunged the world into darkness… war and destructionI am convinced there was a Golden age of peace and prosperity, where there was once a worship of […]
Read More A Golden age“I have met with the tenant and got distinctly the impression that they were Mexican in origin, at least they were wearing Mexican peasant clothes.”
Read More The TenantThe function of a nagual is that if you approach them wrongly, with poor intent they will cause you more detriment than you thought possible…it’s the same with witchcraft….in which there is a saying of true witches…either “KILL OR CURE….” Heal or harm… the choice is yours; there is no middle ground, in this instance….. […]
Read More “Reciprocity“When i was a child, i had a vision that was to never leave me. I lived in rather an ordinary town, which sat on a hill. Beyond the elevation on which the town was situated, the rest of the landscape was completely flat – ‘as far as the eye can see’, so the horizon […]
Read More The EldersThe Warrior’s last stand is an important aspect of Toltec teaching as it not only concerns “living like a warrior” but also the practical application; an alternate means of dying….. Don Juan and his party is said to have “burnt with the fire from within and left the earth”. The Eagle is the force in […]
Read More Last DanceThey say it is always darkest before the dawn, and this is without a doubt, applicable to life, death and the search for truth. In our deepest darkest moments there is a tension that exists. It manifests in the form of energy, which creates a dis-ease. While, were we to go beyond this point – […]
Read More A Threshold of Pain“My will controls the folly of my life –
And there is nothing I can do to change the folly of my life” ~ Toltec Warrior
The Shaman has no interest in Politics – Politics is a different system, a different matrix… The shaman practices being one with the Earth Matrix and as such has no time for such things. Which is not to say they cannot look and discuss. But when politics encroaches upon the viability of their livelihood this […]
Read More Shamanic view of Politics“I never noticed the noise in my head, until it stopped”.
Read More The world of inner silence…They say think positively, always try and see the positive side of every situation! But its hard when disaster hits and all you can see, feel or hope to know is the pain of the misfortune that the circumstances have caused you… But it’s true there is a positive side to every negative situation, a […]
Read More Find Balance…“Now let us call that spirit of the water hole,” he said. I tried to turn my head to look at him. He held me vigorously by the hair and said that I was in a very vulnerable position and in a terribly weak physical state and had to remain quiet and motionless. He had […]
Read More The Spirit CatcherOur self reflection is literally a mirror through which we observe the soul; while we stare at our own reflection finding wonderment or disappointment with ourselves, the world is there just slightly out of our grasp….. Self reflection is our interpretation of world, it is our description of reality, but seeing the world as through a […]
Read More Losing human form“Nostalgia is just a distraction for the shaman. Although it is a pleasant experience, it is something which draws him away from intent. It diverts his attention away from the task at hand. Recapitulation is how the warrior recalls the past. And recapitulation cannot be done with a mood of attachment, nor infatuation, and certainly not through […]
Read More Nostalgia“The universe is a divergence, a division of oneness arising from a singularity of everything uniquely whole. From this Singularity comes the separation of form which we are currently experiencing. Everything will return to wholeness ultimately, it is my firm belief. The existence of light and dark is only an illusion of this separation of matter. Everything we […]
Read More Singularity – the unfoldingI have just been away camping, I hiked about 50 miles from Aviemore to Breamar, in the Scottish Highlands. While I was away, I camped one night by a Loch and took magic mushrooms (humito). I didn’t ingest a great deal as I didn’t take much with me. However it was prepared right; kept in a […]
Read More The Return of QuetzalcoatlYopo snuff or Anadenanthera peregrina is a psycho-active substance prepared and used by The Yanomamo (Yah-no-mah-muh) tribe of the Amazon regions of Brazil and Venezuela. Also called the Yanomami, and Yanomama, they are deep jungle Indians believed to be the most primitive, culturally intact people in existence in the world. They are literally a stone […]
Read More Yopo Vision (Trip report)“Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity you must lead a disciplined life. Only then will you know that any […]
Read More The Path With Heart“The nature of ruthlessness is that it is the opposite of self-pity. All sorcerers are ruthless.” “As I have said, the fourth abstract core of the sorcery stories is called the descent of the spirit, or being moved by intent . In order to let the mysteries of sorcery reveal themselves it is necessary for […]
Read More The Place of No PityDerangement in my opinion is the worst thing that can be set a warrior. A man of knowledge is only such for a fleeting moment then he must return again to the world of ordinary affairs ~ knowledge is a crashing wave and as it breaks upon the shores of knowing – Only then does […]
Read More The way back to serenityIn the first place to see beyond the illusion, is to not trust perception. To understand that the world is a description; a form of language created by the thought of self-reflection. And knowing that by ending this internal dialogue, in order to enter into inner silence and create a shift in awareness, that gives […]
Read More Breaking the ties with PerceptionThe most demanding aspect of the teachings of Don Juan Matus, is in regard to the duality of the warrior; how is it possible to reconcile the two halves of our double nature that comprise the whole. Our dual nature is at best both an advantage and something of a burden… it can inhibit our […]
Read More Stalking and DreamingThe ancient Toltec seers of Mexico concerned themselves with irreducible fact derived by seeing the energetic flow that permeates the universe. This configuration of energy they referred to as the Eagle – the defining source of creation. Time they categorized as something like a thought, thought by something unimaginably large, while space they viewed as […]
Read More The Eagle and the Wheel of TimeExcerpted from “The Active Side of Infinity” by Carlos Castenada pg 217 Don Juan said, “This is the appropriate time of day for doing what I am asking you to do. It takes a moment to engage the necessary attention to do it. Don’t stop until you catch that fleeting black shadow.” I did see […]
Read More The FlyersTHE INORGANIC BEINGS ~ “The old shamans discovered that the entire universe is composed of twin forces, forces that are at the same time opposed and complementary to each other. It is inescapable that our world is a twin world. Its opposite and complementary world is one populated by beings that have awareness, but not […]
Read More The Inorganic BeingsThe western system is flawed; we are beginning to see evidence of a total system crash from economics to social unrest; with the developed world imploding in on itself. The world has finite resources and yet materialism demands production that cannot be sustained – blundering on at the risk of a complete environmental breakdown. Man […]
Read More The Ancestral Spirit“The old sorcerers saw that at the moment of death, the dark sea of awareness sucked in, so to speak, through the assemblage point, the awareness of living creatures. They also saw that the dark sea of awareness had a moment’s, let’s say, hesitation when it was faced with sorcerers who had done a […]
Read More Recapitulation“A nagual is empty. That emptiness doesn’t reflect the world, it reflects infinity. A nagual has no boisterousness on his part, or assertions about the self. There is not a speck of a need to have either grievances or remorse. His is the emptiness of a warrior-traveler, seasoned to the point where he doesn’t take […]
Read More The NagualWATCH VIDEO Excerpt from Journey to Ixtlan: Lessons of Don Juan by Carlos Castaneda “What do you mean by my last dance don Juan?” “This is the site of your last stand, ” he said. “You will; die here no matter where you are. Every warrior has a place to die. A place of his […]
Read More The Warrior’s Last StandI first found my hands in dreaming about 12 years ago. It was not for a want of trying that it took me so long to achieve. I would practice setting up dreaming before falling asleep most nights, I would remind myself that the purpose of my dreaming was to find my hands, I would […]
Read More Find the Hands in Dreaming“We are perceives,” he proceeded. “The world that we perceive though, is an illusion. It was created by a description that was told to us since the moment we were born. “We, the luminous beings, are born with two rings of power, but we use only one to create the world. That ring, which is hooked […]
Read More The Sorcerer’s DiagramLast year in 2010, I went to Kathmandu, and stayed with a friend I know living out there; a born Nepalese man who befriended me in 2007 when I first visited Nepal. My stay was for a month the purpose of which to trek and take photographs of Kathmandu. Prior to this, I had been […]
Read More My Vision of Ganesh10 years ago I went walking around the country for three months. I boarded a train with the intention of travelling to Hope in Derbyshire. However due to difficulties I was having on the train I had to get off at Edale, one stop short of “Hope” if you will…I got off the train and […]
Read More U.F.O Sighting (dreaming awake)I am reluctant to talk about my visions on the whole, I would rather talk of knowledge on a practical level of what I know. Visions are in general unexplained phenomena which take years to be explained. But in the interests of emptying myself which is the shaman’s practice I will tell you about my […]
Read More A Saturn’s Return (dreaming awake)Recently I was in a dream state. My dream had quite ordinary beginnings but escalated to something quite elaborate…It started in the normal way, but I believe I must have found my hands as the dreaming became more vivid and I was able after a while to move from one dreaming location to another quite […]
Read More My Dream of QuetzalcoatlThe shaman is by no means the chief of the tribe. He is the one who is somewhat removed, even commonly living separately from the rest of the community. This person has the responsibility for the spiritual well-being of the group. Shamans are intermediaries between the human world and that of the spirits. Shamans treat […]
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Vision of the Nagual 